Having the chance to start fresh is scary yet exciting. Moving costs from So Cal are pretty high. I will be shipping my belongings as freight. So keeping the essentials is the plan. How do you take old books, toys, collectibles and your life and slim down? eBay, scanning old papers and donating to Good Will is the plan. My life needs to fit in 20 boxes or less.
It will be a new start.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Friday, December 17, 2010
Changing directions...
I had created a mental timeline for myself to move to Atlanta. I am finding that things may become accelerated due to forces beyond my control.
Roommates moving on with their lives, a job offer that seems too low and a bit to far from where I may live for a bit. I am not going to be negative about it, I am going to be more proactive and seek other options. Time is ticking.
Roommates moving on with their lives, a job offer that seems too low and a bit to far from where I may live for a bit. I am not going to be negative about it, I am going to be more proactive and seek other options. Time is ticking.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Parting skies
This morning I realized after almost 2 years of living under a black cloud, the skies are parting. I got a job offer, but it was not the right offer. But it came with a silver lining - I can delay my acceptance.
I have the gift of time. Time to figure out my next steps and a safety net is now in place.
The dark skies are parting and I can release the stress and get back to being me. Someone that has been in hibernation for too long.
I have the gift of time. Time to figure out my next steps and a safety net is now in place.
The dark skies are parting and I can release the stress and get back to being me. Someone that has been in hibernation for too long.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Oh YODA . .
A little movie logic.
Yoda advises Anakin Skywalker : "The fear of loss is a path to the dark side. . . attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed that is. . . train yourself to let go of everything you fear to loose."
I think fear drove me to be negative and to be jealous of my friend. I am going to learn to let go of what I fear to loose.
Yoda advises Anakin Skywalker : "The fear of loss is a path to the dark side. . . attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed that is. . . train yourself to let go of everything you fear to loose."
I think fear drove me to be negative and to be jealous of my friend. I am going to learn to let go of what I fear to loose.
Snow!
So several friends reported it was snowing in Atlanta with it falling but not sticking.
Meanwhile in LA, I was at Universal Studios Hollywood with temps in the low 80s and snow being trucked in for a Grinch themed event.
Hmm, am I ready for it? Just don't know how to drive in snow. Other than that it may be fun to see.
Meanwhile in LA, I was at Universal Studios Hollywood with temps in the low 80s and snow being trucked in for a Grinch themed event.
Hmm, am I ready for it? Just don't know how to drive in snow. Other than that it may be fun to see.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
DREAMS
I am starting this blog to entail a journey that is beginning and another that is ending.
I am dedicating this story to a close friend of mine. He has not realized what a profound influence he has had on my life. He had the courage to tell me how negative I became and how tiring I had become as a person. With his help and his wisdom I see the need to dream. And along my journey I will become a more positive person that is full of wonder and excitement.
When you dream are you thinking of what could be or what if something goes wrong? Do you expect the worst and hope for the best? Do you see a glass half empty or half full?
My journey began 15 years ago. I had a dream that life was better anyplace but where I was. I took a 5 week journey across the United States in search of where I wanted to be. That place was Southern California. As my friends heard so often I believed California was the promised land. It was sunny, and there were movie stars and theme parks. Earthquakes were not as bad as hurricanes. And although cost of living was higher I was going to do great since I had a college education. It took almost 3 years for my dream to be realized.
I had a hard time trying to make it work. But I felt I was driven to So Cal for a reason, an unknown purpose. And in June 2001 my journey began. I was free of living with parents or those that could not see my dream. I am going to say that I have met some wonderful people in California. I saw some amazing things here, but the one thing I never truly found was an easy road. I lived a dream but when my dream did not go my way I became frustrated and negativity set in.
Flash-forward to August 2010. I sat at the table in El Torito with little inkling my world was changing. My best friend was leaving. He was taking a better job and moving for a better life to ATLANTA. I sat there with my heart breaking as I swallowed down my meal. I said little but I did not know what to say. I did the unthinkable, I fell in love with my friend and I could not tell him. I wanted to be happy but the negative thoughts set in - why is he doing this to me, why couldn't he stay, and why so far away? I turned his happy news into how it was affecting me.
Atlanta - well that is an old friend of sorts. I had taken a few trips there when I was living on the East Coast. I had a positive experience there. I remembered that Alison Parker (Courtney Thorne-Smith) left Melrose Place for Atlanta. And a few other friends had moved there a few years back. Well my friend was moving and he mentioned maybe I could go to Atlanta.
The inception for a dream was planted. So I hemmed and hawed over what to do. I can not do this for anyone but myself. It's time for new chapters and new adventures and a road to finding out what makes me happy and a road to redemption to being a better person and a loyal friend. A road to financial success and education. It's time to dream of what could be . . .on The Road to Peachville.
I am dedicating this story to a close friend of mine. He has not realized what a profound influence he has had on my life. He had the courage to tell me how negative I became and how tiring I had become as a person. With his help and his wisdom I see the need to dream. And along my journey I will become a more positive person that is full of wonder and excitement.
When you dream are you thinking of what could be or what if something goes wrong? Do you expect the worst and hope for the best? Do you see a glass half empty or half full?
My journey began 15 years ago. I had a dream that life was better anyplace but where I was. I took a 5 week journey across the United States in search of where I wanted to be. That place was Southern California. As my friends heard so often I believed California was the promised land. It was sunny, and there were movie stars and theme parks. Earthquakes were not as bad as hurricanes. And although cost of living was higher I was going to do great since I had a college education. It took almost 3 years for my dream to be realized.
I had a hard time trying to make it work. But I felt I was driven to So Cal for a reason, an unknown purpose. And in June 2001 my journey began. I was free of living with parents or those that could not see my dream. I am going to say that I have met some wonderful people in California. I saw some amazing things here, but the one thing I never truly found was an easy road. I lived a dream but when my dream did not go my way I became frustrated and negativity set in.
Flash-forward to August 2010. I sat at the table in El Torito with little inkling my world was changing. My best friend was leaving. He was taking a better job and moving for a better life to ATLANTA. I sat there with my heart breaking as I swallowed down my meal. I said little but I did not know what to say. I did the unthinkable, I fell in love with my friend and I could not tell him. I wanted to be happy but the negative thoughts set in - why is he doing this to me, why couldn't he stay, and why so far away? I turned his happy news into how it was affecting me.
Atlanta - well that is an old friend of sorts. I had taken a few trips there when I was living on the East Coast. I had a positive experience there. I remembered that Alison Parker (Courtney Thorne-Smith) left Melrose Place for Atlanta. And a few other friends had moved there a few years back. Well my friend was moving and he mentioned maybe I could go to Atlanta.
The inception for a dream was planted. So I hemmed and hawed over what to do. I can not do this for anyone but myself. It's time for new chapters and new adventures and a road to finding out what makes me happy and a road to redemption to being a better person and a loyal friend. A road to financial success and education. It's time to dream of what could be . . .on The Road to Peachville.
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